I WAS FULL OF IDEAS

Me too I would have liked to have few ideas, but fixed; instead of ideas I have many, but there is no glue that keeps them attached to me. Then those go far away, take flights that are not so controlled, they collide against some walls at times, at other times they get stuck in the trees and remain hanging somewhere that in any case I can no longer reach. Instead what I like, and what I like is what I do not stop wanting. I don't know if the nature of desires is to change and disappear: I only know that mine is to keep them close to me, close enough to let my heart and body, thoughts and all the pains related to thoughts shape me; I let them make me somatize, host the pain even on the skin and under the skin, in all the organs corroded by what I want and cannot have. I know it never changes what I like, but it was more important to find out what it is that I like. There was a time that seems very distant to me when I needed the wishes of others to discover mine, and I swear that I also tried to adapt, to file my edges to please me what everyone liked. Then I learned to choose, to choose for me and to choose me, which in the end I only recognize myself in what I like. And so I choose to prefer my pale skin to tanned shoulders, and black eyes to my almost transparent ones; I choose to prefer the leaves of the trees that are moved by the wind in the spring, and to let myself be bothered without shame by the smell of the sea in the summer; I choose to prefer D'Annunzio to Pirandello, and also to fight to defend this position if needed and for nothing else; I choose to shop together rather than watch a movie, kiss you with your eyes open to see that you laugh a little; I choose to prefer to offer you a dinner and then ask you if you will buy me a flower: it is a slightly more beautiful gesture of love; and I prefer to wake up early in the morning, sunset on the marble of the cathedral to the one on the sea, tea with coffee, being touched, lilies with roses. And then I know that I prefer to remember these things, to write them so as not to forget them, because it is always better to know where to return: in fact I choose to prefer to write to everything else, because it reminds me how to do it.

10 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Ashley
    Aug 19, 2021 @ 14:04:08

    I would send you flowers πŸ’πŸ’πŸ’πŸ€—πŸ™‹β€β™‚οΈ

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  2. Graham Stephen
    Dec 25, 2021 @ 10:56:03

    cool πŸ‘

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  3. Christadelphians
    Mar 24, 2022 @ 18:00:16

    Nice text, but you could have made it more attractive and easier to read, by deviding it in paragraphs.

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    • Fairy Queen
      Mar 25, 2022 @ 09:22:46

      Thank very much for your advice and welcome to my blog. You think this text is too long to read?

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      • Christadelphians
        Mar 30, 2022 @ 15:04:14

        This text, to which I made the comment, is not too long, but could use some editing in paragraphs (or having some spacing) to make it easier or nicer to read. Or like you did in “MY FAIRY CORNER” and “RED PASSION”, where you some placed photo’s between the text.

      • Fairy Queen
        Apr 04, 2022 @ 09:07:46

        Some tiime ago someone said to methat my post wer too long, and I put some pictures in the text. Then I cut the text and put off the pictures. So now I often write short text with only one picture. But you say it’s not good. Ok I’ll try to put some spaces. But I don’t have so much time to edit my posts. I’ve got a life outside my blog. This is only my hobby and not my profession. Anyway. thanks a lot for your suggestions.

  4. Christadelphians
    Apr 05, 2022 @ 15:39:33

    There seems a misunderstanding. We did not say “it’s not good. ” Having one or more photo’s can help, but even having different paragraphs makes reading easier, whilst this would not take more time to write or edit it. Just using the “enter” more.

    In any case, we wish you all the best by this ‘learning process’ and hope you find ways to write interesting articles, catching more people’s eyes.

    Good luck.

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    • Fairy Queen
      Apr 07, 2022 @ 11:34:01

      oh, the “enter2, ok, now I understand better what you mean. Sometimes is the program Word, because I write with a program and then I translate and copy everything. I write in italian and then I have to translate everything and sometimes don’t have so much time to have a look at all paraghraphs.

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    • Fairy Queen
      Apr 07, 2022 @ 11:34:27

      Anyway, thank you for you kind suggestions πŸ™‚

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  5. Christadelphians
    Apr 15, 2022 @ 11:15:59

    Ti auguriamo un periodo di blogging ispiratore per far riflettere anche gli altri. Buona fortuna.

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