UNDERWATER WORLD

And you watch yourself walk the path of your life, that path already traced, already decided, that path that you have not plowed, that path that does not reflect you in the least, that path decided by others for you. And you watch yourself walk along it, without doing anything.Without rebels, so with his head down, accepting his path. And you stay like that, empty, walking almost by inertia in a life you don’t like, in a life that doesn’t belong to you, in a life that walks without you. And why are you there? Because you don’t want to hurt the people you love. They need you and you can’t leave. You can’t choose a different path and leave them in pain. You are always underwater. Stay among the algae. You never re-emerge. Feel the cold of your destiny. You can’t get rid of who you are. You will never be able to live your happiness without making others suffer. Therefore you are imprisoned in the waters of destiny.

3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. seekingdivineperspective
    Nov 17, 2021 @ 01:56:28

    Beautifully written, but very sad.
    I would beg to differ – in part. Sure, we shouldn’t let others dictate who we are and how to live our lives, but a life lived totally for self is empty and unsatisfying in the long run. I get my fulfillment in my relationship with God through Jesus, and letting HIM show me who I am. When I follow His lead, living for Him and others, I am doing what I was created to do, and the result isn’t sad resignation, but incredible JOY. Jesus taught that whoever holds onto his life will lose it, but whoever gives up his life will gain eternal life.
    Having said that, if I start to feel like my life isn’t where it should be, it’s time to consider – am I living out my divine calling, or letting other people dictate what I “ought” to be? There IS a big difference. Other people don’t know me – He does, because He created me!

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    • Fairy Queen
      Nov 17, 2021 @ 19:12:04

      God did I know where I was when I was 4 and a man started abusing me? I can’t know and I don’t want to imagine that he knew what was happening to me and stood there watching. I grew up in a Catholic family and my parents taught me about good. I was a good and generous child and did not deserve to be abused for so many years. I have read many sacred texts of many religions, including the Bible, and if there is such a great power, as so many sacred texts affirm, I would like to see this power manifested in moments when there is a need for Good. That man was not stopped, he destroyed my life, he destroyed my future, and what divine power could allow this? I do not forgive God for the evil I have received. It’s my limit, ok, I can’t forgive him for what he allowed to happen and for everything that keeps happening. If he has his reasons for allowing Evil I cannot understand them. It is my limitation, I admit it, and I apologize. But you must understand that it was difficult for me to live and continue to believe in life and in the Good. I pray, I cry, I suffer and I hope that all of this is really useful for something. Peace and serenity to you. 🌹🌺🌸🌼🌻🙏

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  2. abvr
    Nov 17, 2021 @ 07:27:06

    🌻They need you and you can’t leave. You can’t choose a different path and leave them in pain. You are always underwater. Stay among the algae. You never re-emerge. Feel the cold of your destiny. You can’t get rid of who you are. You will never be able to live your happiness without making others suffer.🌻

    This is such purity
    Beautiful honesty

    But life, you
    You bring yourself up to breathe
    This i believe
    Swim in the waters of sweet harmony once more
    Beloved.

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