FINDING THE DAWN IN THE HOLE OF THE HEART

Panic attacks are awful. They come to you like this, without a reason. So at any moment you are in another dimension; you don’t know where you are; stay still you panic. You tremble. You breathe little and you feel bad, you feel death, heart attack…. you feel bad and you have to go through everything alone. But then the breath comes back, you could survive again. I’m not sure where I find all this strength. Destiny has always had a great sense of humor, she enjoys doing strange things and making people suffer, she plays with them as if they were puppets, and we can’t help but stand still and watch. I dreamed of pink sunrises over the sea. I saw them all but fate took them away. The black sea remained, deep, and I could not go down there to get wet and drown. Even when we were born we actually died, we went to a completely different dimension, and we suffered, it wasn’t easy, our life at that moment ended and we were transported to another dimension. If you think about it when we are in the belly it is not defined earthly life, it is life inside the placenta, therefore the ‘placental’ life ceases. Who tells us that after earthly life there is no life in another temporal dimension? I can be here but enter another timeline when I’m sick. Destiny has taken my pink dawns but the blue sea covers my body, it flies blue and I am happy in the sea.

4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Ashley
    Jan 14, 2022 @ 16:18:24

    πŸ™ I could not pass by.
    No life is pain free, and all life is impermanent.
    If you check my blog I’m taking time out to do some artwork before it is too late. I see that you are drawing too; wonderful. I will continue to read here, of course! If there was some other way of contacting you I would use it πŸŒΉπŸ’πŸ’–πŸ™‹β€β™‚οΈ

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  2. Giannis Pit
    Jan 14, 2022 @ 16:56:24

    panic attacks are very painful. I fully understand your words and I wish all of us not to live it. Have a nich weekend Fairy Queen.

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  3. wjwingrove97
    Jan 17, 2022 @ 15:24:47

    I still get them every few months….I feel your pain…😒😒😒🌷🌷🌷

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