WHEN THE SILENCE COMES

And maybe a silent night reads you better than a conversation that lasts hours. You carry silence inside you like someone who is afraid of talking too much because from an early age you have been told that people are jealous and that you must not rejoice too much in your fortunes otherwise others are unhappy. And allow the silence to come in because maybe you hope that he will give you the right words. In the silent night the silence speaks and you listen. Sometimes it screams, sometimes it makes your eardrums pop, sometimes it makes you cry, sometimes it chokes you because it gets too close. You carry silence with you as if you had a weight on your heart, as if you could not scream to chase it away. I see you walking with silence tangled around you, with each breath it tightens around your mouth. I see you panting for fresh air, for new words. And sometimes you find them, and the silence goes away, then you start breathing again, talking, saying you’re happy, but people are jealous, they are unhappy with you, and they scream, and they talk to you. You wonder how it is possible that silence has no effect on them. You wonder why you didn’t follow the advice they gave you since childhood. Ask yourself, ask the void and the sky, you think a lot and too much. And, in that moment, silence attacks you again.

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  1. seekingdivineperspective
    Jan 21, 2022 @ 15:19:26

    I have been told I was too quiet, and I’ve been told I talk too much. I’ve rejoiced and made people angry, and I’ve confessed the negative and been thought to be an ungrateful complainer. Since I can’t read people’s minds, the best thing for me to do is talk to the only One who can and pray for the right words to say at the right time – and the discernment to know when to shut up and listen. 😉

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