MISSING MY FATHER

Sometimes I try not to remember how my father died. Sometimes, however, I hear his voice that still asks me how I am. My father always asked me how I was. 
My mother never asked me, on the contrary she told me that I should have died and not my father. Sometimes I try to forget certain bad words from my mother. 
I light a candle, light incense, pretend he's home and wait to celebrate something with me. I miss him very much. 
My mother was always there to draw fashion sketches, perhaps for this reason I don't like fashion. My father had a passion for watches in his spare time.
He liked to fix broken mechanisms, stood with the magnifying glass and tried to fix them. It was good to see those miracles and after all they were ticking again.
It was magic and I was a child and I looked at him as if he were a magician.

8 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Adam (Neko Random)
    Nov 13, 2022 @ 15:14:40

    I lost my father at the age of 7 to lung cancer. I have a son of my own now that does hurt that they’ll never know each other

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  2. Tony "T-Bird" Burgess
    Nov 13, 2022 @ 22:24:55

    I lost my dad 3.5 years ago and I miss him every minute of every day.

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  3. seekingdivineperspective
    Nov 14, 2022 @ 03:39:50

    A girl’s relationship with her daddy is so special. I miss my father, too. 💔

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  4. Dawn Pisturino
    Nov 14, 2022 @ 14:02:40

    I’m so sorry for your loss! It must have been very hard to bear.

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  5. Mother Wintermoon
    Nov 14, 2022 @ 20:09:15

    A wonderful tribute to your father and the nuances of your relationship. I’m so deeply sorry for your loss. 💔

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  6. joyroses13
    Nov 18, 2022 @ 17:41:31

    A poignant poem! How sad! So sorry you lost your Dad and the painful words that your mom told you. I hope you can find healing for your soul! 💙

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  7. copd4real
    Nov 18, 2022 @ 17:48:10

    I am sorry your mother is angry with you for surviving. If she has faith in a higher power please remind her that her God made the choice of survival, not you.

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  8. festo_sanjo
    Nov 21, 2022 @ 04:16:22

    Sorry for what you are experiencing right now, everything happens in God’s will. I know your mother hurt you 💔 but just love her from a distance. She’ll one day know that she was wrong.
    Hope that you’ll find some healing though this.

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