RED SHOES FROM OZ

13 years ago the red shoes worn by Judy Garland in the film The Wizard of Oz in 1939 were stolen, the curator of the Judy Garland Museum in Gran Rapids in Minnesota (the hometown of the unforgettable Dorothy, ed) fainted and hoped until the last that it was a joke. Instead it was all true. The sequin-covered red slippers (of which six more are believed to exist in the world), owned by film memorabilia collector Michael Shaw and exceptionally loaned to the Museum, had disappeared. For real.
Red shoes. An immediate, powerful symbol. An effective glance. The red color symbolizes violence, evil, the blood shed by many women all over the world. And at the same time it is the color of love, of passion that turns into evil. Each pair of shoes bears the name of a woman killed by a man.
Red shoes have always been considered the symbol of a woman's delicacy, charm and elegance. Characteristics that every woman has wanted or would like to express freely and without constraints. However, every day those shoes are cruelly torn from the foot of those who would have liked to wear them.
November 25, International Day for the Elimination of Violence Against Women. Many Italian squares welcome hundreds of red shoes.

The silent march of the red shoes has become a symbol of protest and information around the world.

The empty shoes scream all the agony, the shame, the fears and the condemnation of those who have finally decided to say ENOUGH.

The red shoes thus take on a new symbolic value on this occasion. They stand as the banner of a silent but determined fight against all forms of attack against women.
The Zapatos Rojos were born as a public art project by the Mexican artist Elina Chauvet. Which in 2009 exhibited her installation of 33 red shoes in Ciudad Juárez. This is the city where the femicide rate is so high that it is called "the city that kills women".

The Mexican Elina Chauvet, with this great project has transmitted a strong feeling of reality, of pain but also of strength. He has created a method to denounce and shout to the world the horror that femicide carries out almost daily and the willpower to denounce in order to be reborn.

An expanse of strictly red shoes that identify the number of violence, deaths and mistreatment that women have suffered in their lives.
In 1999, the UN General Assembly chose the date of April 25 in memory of the brutal murder in 1960 of the three Mirabal sisters, considered an example of revolutionary women for the commitment with which they tried to oppose the regime of Rafael Leónidas Trujillo (1930 -1961), the dictator who kept the Dominican Republic in backwardness and chaos for over 30 years. On November 25, 1960, the Mirabal sisters were blocked on the road by agents of the Military Intelligence Service as they were on their way to visit their husbands in prison. Taken to a hidden place nearby, they were tortured, beaten with sticks and strangled, only to be thrown over a precipice in their car to simulate an accident.
Since the beginning of the year, 116 women have already been killed in Italy, most of them dead at the hands of husbands or partners. One death every three days, according to the EURES. 
Male violence against women is neither a private fact nor an emergency but a structural and transversal phenomenon of our society, a political fact of the first magnitude that has its roots in the inequality of power between the sexes. Austerity policies and reforms such as those of work and school, in continuity with what has happened in the last ten years, do nothing but undermine the paths of autonomy of women and deepen social, cultural and sexual discrimination.

SIX FEET OVER

Passion and foot worship have a history and dignity; for Chinese medicine, feet are the origin and basis of human health. For the Arabs, however, women’s feet carry a story with them, usually drawn with tattoos made with henna. In our culture, the foot and the shoe that surrounds it, provide many indications about our personality and history: women with heels love to seduce, please and like each other, those with amphibians are tough and tough, while they are serious and incorruptible if they wear. moccasins or lace-up shoes.
Foot worship includes numerous practices, such as licking, kissing or sniffing your partner's feet.
Here are the main ones:

feet kissing: the practice of kissing the feet. 

feet licking: when you lick your feet. 

feet sniffing: practice in which you sniff your feet, preferably sweaty and unwashed. 

feeling from feet: an act in which food is eaten using the feet as a plate. 

toesucking: act in which the toes are sucked. 

feet massage: get your feet massaged. 

foctjob: practice where you masturbate using your partner's feet. 

trampling: act in which the submissive is trampled by his partner wearing high heels
Subjects who are afraid of being emasculated focus their attention, becoming morbid, on only one part of the body. In this way you avoid seeing the naked woman and having to do the same, showing the penis and exposing it to danger. Psychoanalysis has indicated early sexual intimidation as an accidental condition that rejects the normal sexual goal and encourages the search for a substitute. Freud originally explained fetishism as a manifestation of castration anxiety. The object chosen as a fetish represents the female penis, a displacement that helps the fetishist to overcome the anguish of castration.
The foot, as well as the footwear, is one of the first things a baby encounters in the mother, especially if we think about the moment in which she crawls. So it remains imprinted in the child's memory and can turn into the object of desire. The passion for this part of the body can also be linked to the desire for submission, which can be easily associated with the foot. There are various practices that involve both the bare foot, clean or not, or just the toes, both footwear, tights and stockings: new, used, whole, with holes.

WOMAN IS THE “N” OF THE WORLD

Even now women are victims of a system that oppresses them. War is one of the many means by which the oppression of women takes place who are considered spoils, slaughter fodder, their abused bodies. This violence has no limits, it is the worst form that exists. Women who see their freedom canceled. Useless years of study. Unit sacrifices. Useless jobs. Useless clothes. Any free choices that women have made until now are useless. The war - and the men who fly it - have taken it all. They steal and erase female freedom. Men who have the power to annihilate women, their stories, their choices. The influence men have on women's lives is frightening. They are the masters and exercise this power of life or death with extreme wickedness. They are women whose life is over. Many will be sold. They will be given in marriage by little girls. They won't go home. They will end up in prostitution. They will be forced into the worst violence. And they will have to undergo everything in silence, in the blackest terror, without any hope.

I am furious because now I am sitting on my beautiful sofa writing a stupid papyrus which is useless, which will not help any woman. I'm furious because I can't save any woman with words. Because using a fucking keyboard is useless. And while I choose which stupid shirt to wear, a hundred other women will suffer and die because others will choose for them.

A strong thought full of pain and hope goes to Afghan women with the hope that one day the world will accept all of us women as an integral part and not as a category to be oppressed.

Germaine Greer wrote: "Women have only a small idea of ​​how much men hate them."
Limited education, prohibition of certain types of clothing, restrictions on freedom of movement. To fall under the control of the Taliban again means this for Afghan women, who have taken to the streets to oppose the advance of Islamic fundamentalists. In the days when the foreign armed forces left the country, they marched along the city streets in the north and center of Afghanistan carrying rifles. The most popular demonstration in Ghor, where hundreds of women, marching with weapons along the streets of the center, chanted slogans against the Taliban. “There were some women who just wanted to inspire the security forces, only symbolically. But many others were ready to go to the battlefields, ”said Halima Parastish, head of the women’s leadership in Ghor, in the statement reported by the Guardian. “I and some other women – she added – we told the governor, about a month ago, that we are ready to go to fight”. “I don’t want the country to be under the control of people who treat women the way they do. We took up arms to show that if we have to fight we will do it, ”a reporter later declared.
It is not obvious to say that war, like evil, only brings out the worst in people, capable of showing their true nature without hesitation, in a state of suspended judgment. The strongest oppress the weakest, it has always been like that. And in the whirlwind of clichés, one from last August 15th echoes more than the others. With the takeover of Kabul by the Taliban, women are in grave danger. Everything that the Afghan women are or have conquered is raided day after day, in an all-encompassing process of depersonalization; they are objects for man’s use and consumption, they must satisfy their pleasures and to define them as sexual.
It is not obvious to say that war, like evil, only brings out the worst in people, capable of showing their true nature without hesitation, in a state of suspended judgment. The strongest oppress the weakest, it has always been like that. And in the whirlwind of clichés, one from last August 15th echoes more than the others. With the takeover of Kabul by the Taliban, women are in grave danger. Everything that the Afghan women are or have conquered is raided day after day, in an all-encompassing process of depersonalization; they are objects for man’s use and consumption, they must satisfy their pleasures and to define them as sexual.
Islamists have given “numerous warnings”: women and their families are threatened with death or torture if they go to work. The fighters do not warn twice, they go directly to action, staining even the most wicked acts such as necrophilia. All this seems to be confirmed by the warlords’ order to hunt girls aged 12 and over to make them sex prisoners, after the surrender of the Afghan government and the abandonment of the last US military troops. Rape, in reality, could only be the beginning of a long hell. Then, after the sexual violence, the same can be sold or sold as part of some commercial negotiation, such as weapons or drugs. Omar Sadr, who is a professor of politics at the American University of Afghanistan (no one knows how much …) argues that “the Taliban fighters feel authorized to do all this on the basis of their rigid interpretation of Islam, which sees women as kaniz », that is as a commodity.

SLUT SHAMING

On social networks (but also live), cosplayers are often victims of slut shaming. To understand, we need to take a step back. Comic book heroines, from the United States to Japan via Italy, are often sexy heroines - it also happens with male characters, but for different reasons, even if the comic audience has changed a lot in recent decades. This means for cosplayers they also have to contend with skimpy clothing - such as short skirts,transparencies, bellies in evidence. Unfortunately, machismo does not spare even this form of art and it is not uncommon for women who cosplay to find themselves fighting with certain legacies and having to face insults of all kinds, in particular with regard to alleged performances between the sheets.
Of course, it seems obvious to us: the way in which a woman dresses - even more so if she is playing a character and for her that is often a job and not a pastime - is not an index of her sexual attitude and,even if that were the case, every woman's body belongs to herself and can do whatever she likes
It must also be said that what cosplayers do is similar to the activity of models - many of them are in fact: certainly no one forces them to choose a cosplay more naked than another, but we are talking about people who work with their own. images and which must also be allowed a certain freedom of artistic choice. It's always the same story: no woman goes looking for her, do you really believe that a woman wants to be groped or worse? Do you really believe that a passionate person, who has spent time and money to devote himself to his art, can be treated in this way just because someone does not conceive that a woman is free?
Harassment doesn't just happen in chat but also at trade shows. This is why the '' Cosplay is not consent '' movement was born. A campaign started in the United States, which pushes for greater control by the organizers of the fairs, to prevent certain types of harassing behavior. By posting flyers and placards, an attempt is made to raise awareness among the participants in the events on this issue.

WHERE WERE THE TALEBANS?

In the sixties and seventies of the twentieth century, Afghanistan was very different from what it is known today.
It was one of the most modern and modernized countries, as well as one of the most advanced in terms of women's rights, in the South Asian area.
At the time it was ruled by the monarch Zahir Shah, who was the last monarch in the country and promoted a liberal constitution and was opened and influenced by the West.

Following the 1979-1989 war and the struggle between the various warlords as well as the subsequent takeover of the Taliban and the 2001 war, Afghanistan changed completely and became what it is known today.

In this video, originally published by the user 'Farshid Noori' and taken up on the Youtube channel of 'Informazione Consapevole', you can see unpublished images of the Afghanistan of the 60-70s.
Afghanistan no longer exists. Or at least, this name no longer exists. Nobody expected such a quick surrender. The capital Kabul - about 4.5 million inhabitants - fell in a few hours, President Ghani fled abroad, first to Tajikistan and then to Uzbekistan, "to avoid a bloodbath for the citizens," he said; diplomats had already begun to leave the offices in recent days. After 20 years of war, the country returns to the hands of the Taliban.

The new Taliban offensive started in May 2021: in a few weeks the Islamic militias have mowed down everything. NATO forces withdrew, the regular army broke up, no foreign alliance intervened with new peacekeeping missions, or at least a ceasefire. With little fighting, the Taliban regained power with both hands.
These Americans are making a huge mess and have made a huge mistake, making the figure of the weak ones, since in 20 years I have not been able to defeat the Taliban and now they give a lot of giving a damn if women will end badly, after having had 20 years of freedom. No one cares about this, no humanitarian organization, no feminist association, no international foundation? Is it possible that no one cares if so many people are tortured and killed? So what were the Americans doing there if in just one month everything is back to normal and human rights are again outraged?
Nobel Peace Prize winner Malala Yousafzai expressed her enormous concern over the return of the Taliban to Kabul, asking every country in the world to allow refugees fleeing Afghanistan to enter. The 24-year-old activist knows what it means to grow up under the threat of the Taliban: when she was just a teenager, in 2012, she was wounded in the head by a gunshot fired by a militant. His fault? Commitment to the right to education for women. "We are talking about progress, equal rights and gender equality - he said in an interview with the BBC - we cannot stand by and watch a country that goes back decades, centuries".

Malala Yousafzai reiterated that every country has a responsibility at this time and asked to open the borders for those who flee, trying to save their lives: some countries, including Austria, have already said they are against welcoming the displaced. In particular, she turned to her country, Pakistan: "I wrote a letter to Prime Minister Imran Khan, asking him to allow refugees to enter but above all to ensure that refugees, especially girls, have the right to safety and security. 'access to education'. Already on August 15, the day of the fall of Kabul, the activist had expressed his concern for the Afghan situation. In a tweet she wrote that she was witnessing a complete "state of shock" at the advance of the Taliban and that she was "deeply concerned" about the consequences on human rights, particularly those of women and minorities. In an interview with the BBC, Malala Yousafzai once again underlines the importance of education, a powerful tool for women's emancipation. In fact, she asks that girls who are fleeing Afghanistan today can continue to study, perhaps in local schools or camps. "Their future is not lost," he concludes.

FREE THE NIPPLES


Over the past year, the Free the Nipple Movement has gained tons of momentum and support from millions of men and women.»

«While media portrays women’s bodies as objects intended for sexual pleasure, many are speaking out against this injustice by standing with Free the Nipple to create equality between men and women and to fight against oversexualizing women.»

They are speaking out against this injustice by standing with Free the Nipple to create equality between men and women and to fight against oversexualizing women.»
«This movement promotes freedom for women to be able to make their own decisions about their body based upon their own level of comfort. It is important that women conceal their breasts because they want to and not because of the pressure of societal acceptance and shame.»
«While this movement has been increasing momentum, it is now gaining popularity within other countries and now college campuses, both of which are crusading against the oversexulization of women and even rape culture.»
«While many want to assume that the importance of normalizing women’s nipples are just a cry for sexual attention, it’s more than that for many reasons.»
«In essence, this movement has everything to do with gender equality, and social equality, but for whatever reason, people still aren’t taking women rights seriously enough.»
«It is time for women and men to speak out against the injustices made against women, not just within social settings but online as well in order to end the oversexualization of the female body.»

JANE AUSTEN’S HOUSE

Jane Austen. A name well known to all of you. Surely many of you have read his books. Perhaps they will also be curious to know where he lived and where he wrote his masterpieces.
I happened by chance to see her house in Bath rented, thinking that her fans want to stay there in order to be inspired by those places where her heart has longed for so much.
 But what a disappointment for me to see his house all remodeled and changed. This is not Jane's house! This looks like any modern English house that anyone could have lived in!
It would have been nicer to see his house, peeling, old, moldy, rather than this luxurious New York-style apartment.
I wonder who could have made such a scampi.
When I saw Virginia Woolf's house years ago, I was impressed that they had kept everything as it was and hadn't renovated anything and touched anything. But this Jane Austen house has been stripped of her own spirit and honestly I will never set foot in it.
Does this look like the nineteenth-century living room where Jane welcomed her guests?
This kitchen looks like something out of a Netflix series, right? And this blue is terrible!!!
Is this really the chair Jane used to read in?

THE BRAVE HEART

This photograph was taken in Ireland in 1972, and depicts a girl shooting with the weapon of her boyfriend, who was wounded in a battle against the British army.

The man survived, transported to a safe place, thanks to the sacrifice of his girlfriend who faced the English soldiers until she was killed.

When the British battalion commander discovered he had been fighting a woman, he ordered his soldiers not to touch her body and allowed the Irish to bury it. They are said to have heard the English commander exclaim: "The queen does not care about us as this woman cared about her man and her land".

The photo was chosen as a symbol for Women's Day in Ireland, alongside the phrase: "Don't be afraid to bond with a strong woman. The day may come when she will be your only army."

HOW MANY WOMEN HAVE FIGHT FOR PEOPLE’S RIGHTS?

THIS PHOTO HAS TAKEN DURING THESE DAYS IN PERUVIAN BORDER. A WOMAN LAY ON THE GROUND TO PROTEST AGAINST THE CLOSURE OF THE BORDER.

HOW MANY WOMEN HAVE FIGHT FOR PEOPLE’S RIGHTS IN THE PAST? HO MANY WOEN HAVE RISKED THEIR LIVES TO CARRY ON IMPORTANT STRUGGLES?

Zuana Ajorduy Daughter of a mestizo mother and a white father, she was born in a territory that would become Bolivian, in the Viceroyalty of La Plata. Orphaned as a child, she spent a good part of her life in convents. Married at 25, he had five children. Together with Padilla, his companion, he was part of one of the small internal resistance formations, born after the defeat of the so-called urban movements. His determination, courage and enviable leadership earned him the rank of lieutenant colonel in 1816. Wounded in combat, still pregnant with her fifth child, her husband died trying to save her. In 1825 she was promoted to colonel, by decision of Simon Bolivar. He also fought in six major clashes against the monarchists in northern Upper Peru to secure independence processes. Years later, she died in poverty and was buried in a mass grave. Late acknowledged, it was in her honor that Argentina made the 12th of July, her birth, the Day of the Heroines and Martyrs of the Independence of America.
Micaela Bastidas Puyucahua, who was the leader of a rebellion in 1780, together with her husband José Gabriel Condorcanqui, Túpac Amaru II. The goal was to defeat and banish the colonizers, this desire having been consolidated by the abuses that were committed against the indigenous peoples. Her husband was the rebel leader in Puno, while she personally handled military operations in Cusco. On countless occasions it was she who established the strategies followed by Túpac Amaru II. In addition, she was a great administrator, taking over the reins of all the family businesses and rioters. The insurrection they led was fundamental to the subsequent Peruvian emancipation, achieved in 1821. Micaela was a Zamba, with both indigenous and African roots. He had three children and looked after them with attention similar to that which he gave to his people. After she became famous for her feats in the fight, she was offered cash prizes and noble titles for her capture. Defeated in a final battle, she and her husband were arrested and sentenced to death, along with other leaders. She entered the execution square, dragged by a horse, with tied hands and feet. In any case, I would have said “for the freedom of my people I have given up everything. I will not see my children blossom ”, having then cut off his tongue. She also needed to see one of her sons executed before she was strangled.

( FROM VIRTUALITADES BLOG: https://virtualidades.blog/2021/06/15/mulheres-que-lutaram-pela-america-latina/#comment-1077)

Leona Vicario was a standard in Mexican history, known as “the strong woman of independence” and considered the country’s first journalist, she was an intelligent Mexican, skilled in paintings, educated in politics, history and literature, and a descendant of honorable parents. María Soledad Leona Camila Vicario Fernández de San Salvador, her full name, was born 229 years ago, on April 10, 1789 in Mexico City. She was the only daughter of the Spanish merchant Gaspar Martín Vicario and Camila Fernández de San Salvador, originally from Toluca. At the age of 17 she was orphaned and under the tutelage of her uncle Agustín Pomposo Fernández. At the beginning of the War of Independence, Vicar joined the Insurgents, a movement in which he was a key player as he financed the rebel movement, sheltered fugitives, sent medicine, transmitted resources and information on any event that occurred in the viceroy court. In 1812 Vicar convinced a group of gunsmiths from Biscay to join the gang.
María Remedios del Valle is an Argentine soldier. Of African origin, he was born in Buenos Aires probably towards the end of 1766 or 67. His debut in battle dates back to the defense of the city of Buenos Aires during the first English invasion in 1806 in which he was part of the Andalusian Corps. After the revolution proclaimed on May 25, 1810 when the Spanish viceroy Baltasar Hidalgo de Cisneros was dismissed and the First Junta of the Argentine Government was established, Maria Remedios del Valle integrated the Northern Army, in which her husband and children had also enlisted. , and on 6 July 1810 he took part in the first expedition to Upper Peru (now Bolivia) against the Spanish domination. During the battle of San Miguel de Tucumán, in addition to fighting by encouraging the soldiers, he also took care of the wounded. For the value shown, General Belgrano appointed her Captain. During the battles of Salta and Felcapugio in which the Northern Army was defeated by the royalists, her husband and children were killed. Maria de Remedios continued to fight and care for the wounded along with other women known as “Las Niñas de Ayohuma”. She was taken prisoner along with five hundred other soldiers. Her escape attempt was discovered and she was flogged for nine days. However, he managed to escape by joining the troops of Martín Miguel de Guemes and Juan Antonio Álvarez de Arenales. After the independence declared in San Miguel de Tucumán on July 9, 1816, in 1827, General Juan José Viamonte, who had been his comrade in arms during the campaign of Upper Peru, recognized Maria de Remedios begging in the streets of Buenos Aires and lived in a state of total poverty. Thanks to his role as deputy of the government of the Province of Buenos Aires, Viamonte was able to support the request for a pension for the services provided by the Capitana.
Marielle Franco, the Brazilian activist killed six months ago in the Estacio neighborhood of Rio de Janeiro. Elected in 2016 to the city council, she stood up for a long time in defense of the most marginalized people. Franco has fought numerous civil battles alongside the LGBT community, black women and young people from the favelas, achieving important results as a member of the State Commission for Human Rights. Her case is not isolated, as she herself denounced on Twitter the day before her assassination (March 13): “Another murder of a young man who could be credited to the police, […] how many more will have to die to end this war ? “. There is a harsh sentence on the police and army bodies which, not only in Brazil, are accused of brutally repressing activists and political dissidents.
María Isabel Chorobik de Mariani, best known as “Chica de Mariani”. who passed away on August 20, one of the founders of the Abuelas de Plaza de Mayo association – are calling for justice for their children and grandchildren, more than forty years after the fall of the Videla military junta and, for the Mexican towns, twenty-five years after the events in Ciudad Juarez. In the city on the border between Mexico and the United States, from 1993 to 2005 there were over 300 femicides and to date, in the north-eastern region of the country alone, six thousand people have disappeared into thin air. Above all, the brutal violence against rights defenders is worrying: the Brazilian Committee for Human Rights Defenders reports that, between January and September 2017, 62 activists were killed in Brazil, most of them engaged in defense of the territory and of local populations, as also documented by a report (At what cost ?, 2018) by the NGO Global Witness: in 2017, 207 ‘environmental activists’ lost their lives in South America.
Berta Cáceres Siding in defense of the Lenca indigenous community and committed to safeguarding the Río Gualcarque, Cáceres was awarded the prestigious international Goldman Environmental Prize (2015), which fueled deep aversions towards it. In Latin American ‘frontier spaces’, women’s courage collides with social prejudice, tested by political idiosyncrasies and threatened by criminal interests.
Mexico, reports an article from El Paìs, the protests of the ‘mitoteras’ have continued for months, thirty women desperate for uncensored children and husbands, ‘disappeared’ in the head-on confrontation that opposes the Mexican military to the drug cartels in the state of Tamaulipas, on the border with Texas. Karen, Jessica, Gabriela and Azeneth are just some of the women who, like the Argentine activist María ‘Chica’ de Mariani – who passed away on August 20, one of the founders of the Abuelas de Plaza de Mayo association – call for justice for their own children and grandchildren, more than forty years after the fall of the Videla military junta and, for the Mexican towns, twenty-five years after the events in Ciudad Juarez. In the city on the border between Mexico and the United States, from 1993 to 2005 there were over 300 femicides and to date, in the north-eastern region of the country alone, six thousand people have disappeared into thin air.

STRANGE GIRLS

I’m that weird girl, yes weird. You know? The one who, among friends, is stupid and laughs, for everything. The one who prefers to cry in the bedroom alone and not in front of everyone. The one with the moments of madness and the paranoid ones. The one that gives meaning to every bracelet on her wrist. The one who prefers to take the picture and not be there. The one that keeps everything. The one who loses everything: keys, headphones, buses, people, respect. The one who asks “sorry” even when the fault is not his. The one who lives every single place and book. The one who imagines what she wants by her side, everywhere. The messy one. The one with complicated thoughts, which no one understands. The one who loves hugs more than kisses. The one who loves to write and not smoke. The one who, to be happy, does not need drugs but the smile of those she loves. The one who does not look for people for fear of annoying. The one who never writes to anyone but waits. The one with the smudged makeup at parties. The grumpy one, who responds badly. The one who would like to be kinder, but has that anger inside that, sometimes, ruins the good speeches she would like to make. The one that puts others first and then herself. The one who gives others what she would like to receive. The strange one. So, do you have this in mind? Here, it’s me. “
They are a human contradiction. I have no faith in myself, but I am self-centered. I want to do many things and I always have a thousand projects in mind, but I want to die. I want to make people believe that I am strong, but I cry all the time. In every situation I am indifferent and detached, but everything wounds me to death because I am hypersensitive. When I get up, every morning, I want to be happy and start the day well, but I also want to never get up and sleep forever.
There are those days where you feel the world is collapsing on you and you don’t want to see or hear anyone but you have to face everything. You get the urge to disappear, to go away but you don’t know where to go and so you look at yourself, you observe yourself and you ask yourself “what the fuck am I doing here? Why do I make so many mistakes? Why do I wither everything I meet? Everything ends and I am the cause. I am the person who while loving you, at the same time kills you. Where the more you stay together the more you suffer, where it is impossible to continue because I am impossible, irrecoverable, paranoid and irascible. I just have to leave myself to fate, to hope for a better day than today, yesterday and even before.
Alice, it was better to stay in Wonderland, don’t you think? Reality isn’t what you imagined, is it? But tell me, what did you think it was like to grow up? You always wanted to be happy. You didn’t think there was so much pain in the world. You thought they were all there, ready to stop your falls. You thought you were going to be a star someday. And now you are there, Alice, sitting in that dark corner, with that blood coming out of her arms, legs and soul. And cry, Alice. Cry, because you can’t take it anymore. Cry, because you stopped fighting. Cry, because you are not enough. Cry, because you are one too many. You cry, because you no longer know anything. Cry, why do you dry their tears but who dries yours? Cry, because your eyes can no longer hold all those tears trapped. Cry, because you are a mistake. Cry, because you are a disappointment. Cry, because you are like that. You cry, because you no longer find reason to continue breathing. You cry, because you have finished living for a while. Cry, because the monsters who lived under your bed grew up with you and moved into your head. Cry, because you want to end it. You cry, because you are too afraid to end it. You cry, because you are afraid. You call the White Rabbit, you want to be led back to Wonderland. You scream, you scream, he doesn’t hear you. Look at you, Alice. Where did you go? Why did you let yourself go? Alice will pass, you’ll see. Alice, you’ll be fine. Alice, Alice, why is it all dark around you? Alice have you gone away? Alice, Alice, do you see me from up there? Alice how much blood did you leave here. Is there any piece of your heart, in the midst of all this red? Alice, you were so little. So fragile. And to think, that it was enough just for someone to take care of you. Alice, Alice, Alice. Now in Wonderland you will stay there forever, aren’t you happy?

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