THE BRANCHES OF THE ROSE

Are there subtle blackmails that constantly keep you on some sort of hanging thread? between guilt and terror of letting go.
Whoever exercises this power over you has the constant ability to bring you back in line, every time you disregard his expectations, every time you move on you. All this affects you, your daily life, your freedom.
The fear of giving up those roles that are all you know, all you recognize, is biting.
Getting out of these constant reproaches is necessary, giving up everything that triggers this mechanism is fundamental.
The breath that breaks, the sense of guilt that digs inside,
the fear of losing everything and losing you too, is central.
“You don’t give me what I expect, I ignore you, not recognizing you as I recognized you before, because you are no longer deserving that award”. Letting go is difficult,
giving up your role within that circle of trust is complicated, being afraid of not being able to “exist and recognize yourself” without the other is a focal point. Yet we can and absolutely must, to the point that it will no longer be what the other does but what you absolutely will no longer allow.

RISE FROM THE EARTH

Divine Mother, majestic land in which we are all born,
forget our karma,
sparkles of radiant lives,
you, divine light brighter than the sun,
golden water.
Where the petals open our spring,
rise from the end of the black age.
Magnify the heart,
amplify love,
becomes birth again.
Mother of us all,
blue flame of the sky,
defeat the color of Death.
Open your roses,
stretch out your hands,
scatter your heart inside the branches,
fruit be given to each weary breath.
Lady of the golden earth
walk with your feet
over the terrible devils and kill them all.

MY GARDEN WITH HOLES

My garden is full of puddles, holes made by dogs, pieces of branches flown in the storm, bare trees and no flowers because the mice have eaten the bulbs. And I'm very sad that I can't have a nice garden but the weather is awful here. It is very cold and there is already snow on the mountains and yesterday it was only 4 degrees. The house is very humid and even if we heat it later it becomes cold again, it does not keep the heat, it is an old house and it is a torment. Here in my area life is very sad now, especially for me because I don't have the green pass and I can no longer go to the gym, to the theater, to the cinema. I always have to stay at home. Our Italian government has taken away all freedom from us and people like me, who cannot get the vaccine, are limited in everything in life. I am getting depressed and I can't stand this deprivation of freedom. Now in Italy there is this dictatorship that is destroying the country's economy and the people.

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