"You are strong."
"You'll be fine"
"I've never met a girl like you, you are indestructible"
How many times have I heard these phrases repeated, how many times have I heard them say during a moment of weakness, as if they wanted to reproach me for the fact that for a moment I would allow myself a second of weakness.
Because to be a strong woman, as everyone says, I had to go through bad experiences, because to be indestructible I had to face the worst demons, that my peers would be afraid of just thinking about it.
They are those phrases that continue to make you feel alone, and remind you "and, they are next to you because they admire your courage, but when you allow yourself weakness I don't want to have you anymore. Because as long as you absorb the problems others are fine, when others have to pick you up from the ground, you can very well die. "
But my dears, I tell you what, I'm a fucking bitch, who got up even when she didn't even know if it was really worth living anymore. And I assure you, touching the bottom, looking in the mirror and not recognizing oneself, getting up and reattaching all the pieces by herself, she can't at all.
But I assure you, even those you envy so much, the "strong" ones have moments in which they allow themselves to bring out those emotions that hurt so much. But being strong also means allowing yourself to experience every emotion, giving yourself a respite and saying "Yes !! It hurts, it hurts, but tomorrow it will be less painful."


In the Far East, the moral duty of simplicity of life has been taught since ancient times, perhaps because of the ancestor worship characteristic of Shinto thought.
The fact is that when I find myself among large trees, with an age of many tens of years, I am always moved ... because I think of what they will have experienced, perceived among the chirps on the branches, fought in the seasons of time, for reach those heights and those dimensions. They are like living cathedrals. In short, a sense of reverence from the depths captures me, where the sense of Beauty and the Sacred are still preserved.

This feeling in Japan extends mainly to the elderly, as well as to handicrafts (which are repaired with the famous art of Kintsugi); in fact, despite the position of supreme importance and the wealth possessed, the shōgun Ieyasu Tokugawa (born in 1543) bent the hakama personally and said: "If, when we use things, we do not think about the time and effort necessary to create them, then the lack of consideration lowers us to the same level as the beasts ».

The origin of this symbol is virtually unknown and is lost in the mists of time: a legend tells of when Amaterasu (the goddess of the Sun) locked herself in a cave to escape her terrible brother Susanoo, causing an eclipse; to induce her to come out of her shelter (and restore the sunlight) all the roosters in the city were placed on a large wooden perch for the birds: their continuous singing intrigued Amaterasu, who peeked out of the cave. Taking advantage of the gap that had opened, one of the gods completely opened the entrance, pushing the rock away and allowing the sunlight to illuminate the earth again. That perch became the first torii, which in Japanese means "bird", an animal considered according to Shinto as a messenger of the gods (another hypothesis derives it from the Japanese term tori-iru, "to enter").
The name "Shintoism" instead derives from the Chinese term Shintô, composed of the two ideograms 神 "Shin" (divinity, spirit) and 道 "to / tao" (way, path) and was introduced in the 6th century, when it became necessary to distinguish native religion of Japan from the recently imported Buddhist one, and corresponds to the original Japanese term "Kami no michi", or "the path of the gods" or "the way of the kami (or beings of light)", intended as associated spiritual deities to the forces of nature (the sun, the moon, ...) or present in a specific territory as "guardian" spirits.
Shinto is an ancestral religion of Japan. It could be defined as a "national" cult, as it is closely connected to this people and has never spread abroad, as Buddhism did, except in the period of State Shinto - between the end of the nineteenth century and 1945 -, where it was imposed in Korea and Hokkaido as a means of cultural assimilation.
It is a polytheistic religion with shamanic traits, with an animistic origin (type of cult in which divine or supernatural qualities are attributed to objects, places or material beings) which probably derives from the period in which the ancestors of the first colonizers of islands of the Rising Sun resided in the steppes of Mongolia.
The primitive and original cult of Japan therefore refers to the kami, a term literally formed by the union of two characters, 示 "altar" and 申 "speak, report", which can be translated into "what speaks, manifests itself from the altar", "Beings of Light" cultured by a population originally from the Sino-Mongolian continent and landed along the coasts of the southern islands of the Japanese archipelago. Their religious traditions, characterized by animistic and divinatory practices, are supported by solemn rituals that give great honor to the ancestors belonging to the different tribes, in some cases divinized or transformed into kami.
In the cosmogony of this religion the kami of the origins did not create the world and everything that populates it, including human beings, but generated it, with the consequent implication that all beings, men and mountains, stones, trees, animals, flowers, storms, seas, volcanoes, are "children" of the same emanation, basically brothers and sisters, united by horizontal bonds of secret kinship. Note that the Japanese language does not distinguish singular from plural, nor masculine from feminine, so kami can often mean god or goddess, gods or goddesses; how can it mean gods, deities, high spirits, demons.
Until the year 1000 AD in Japan everything that belongs to a cosmic, sacred, superior and luminous reality, of which everything and everyone is a part, is considered kami, including all those elements considered mysterious by men for their extraordinary nature (volcanoes, celestial bodies, mountains , the stars,…). Although the word is sometimes translated as "god" or "divinity," Shinto theologians specify that this type of translation can cause a serious misunderstanding of the term. In some circumstances, they are identified as real deities, similar to the gods of ancient Greece or ancient Rome. In other cases, however, such as the phenomenon of growth, natural objects, spirits that dwell in trees, or forces of nature, translating kami as "god" or "divinity" would be a misinterpretation.
In many respects Shinto is a "sister" religion of Taoism, as in the latter there is no hierarchy to respect, there is no kami superior to the others, but while Taoism is based on the balance between yin and yang, Shinto is based on three elements: in, yo and yuan. The first two are the Chinese counterparts of yin and yang, the third is the force that is unleashed by the meeting of these two elements, that is, the manifestation of cosmic energy. The set of these three elements is depicted with a symbol called Tomoe, connected to Hachiman, god of war and patron of Samurai warriors and associated with the characteristics of strength, healing and war. The three comet-shaped tails that chase each other in perfect harmony represent, according to another interpretation, the three virtues of strength, benevolence and courage.
Although Shinto has no absolute commandments other than to live a simple life in harmony with nature and people, there are four precepts that express its ethical spirit:

    -harmony in the family
    -harmony with nature
    -matsuri (festivals dedicated to the kami).

According to Shintoism, maintaining contact with nature involves achieving completeness and happiness and allows you to be close to the kami: nature must be respected, venerated and above all protected because from it derives the balance of life. During the Matsuri (祭), the festivities dedicated to the kami, newborns are presented to the family shrine, marriages are celebrated in the vast majority, in the countryside rice is sown and transplanted, while in the cities the foundations of houses and condominiums are blessed . The priest Shintō (kannushi 神主) with his white, light blue, purple robes according to the circumstances, honors and blesses the crafts and housewives operations of every day and is present wherever productive activities are started.


There is a pastor that the common mass does not yet know: it is Carl Gallups. Here, he lends us a unique experience of the correlations between ancient prophecies and modern titles.

Pastor Carl unveils many disturbing ancient pagan practices and ceremonies that are replayed in our cultures and modern governments. Prophecy is foretold in the Bible and is fulfilled in today's news. But neither America nor Europe are mentioned in the Bible; therefore, can there be a real connection between Europe or modern America, Israel and the end times?

Here, we will learn how prophecy works, how modern America ties into ancient prophecy, why Israel is in its sights, which countries to look to, and what will happen in these latter times!


The problem is the night, when you are alone, immersed in silence and your demons come out. That inject memories, cultivate paranoia, and tease your subconscious. Then your heartbeats increase, your breathing heats up and your eyes fill with tears. But close your eyes and try to sleep, the next morning they won’t have any power. I slept great tonight, zero nightmares. I woke up with Lola on my legs, everything is fine. In the morning I cleaned up the house taking very little time since there was not much to do. I washed my hair and made a coconut wrap, they smell like saaaacco. After I started drawing and in the meantime I listened to the new Maneskin album for the third time, the song I like best is I wanna be your slave “I love drums. I ate very little at lunch, I can’t eat a whole meal. I made the dough for tonight’s pizza. I put it in the oven and then the others eat it, I eat fruit, I feel too hot. After I rested waiting for the time to go down.
I spent a while on the couch with Thomas, he said that yesterday he woke up with a bad moon and he was a bit down in the dumps … this explains his behavior yesterday. I don’t know why but I didn’t believe him much. For dinner I ate a tiny slice of pizza with vegetables …. Plus when I got home I had a stomach ache.
Evening poem moment with Madness Poems by Jake Matthews, page 88 The man who kidnapped hurricanes. The story of a hurricane-kidnapper to bring them back home after their escape and turmoil. Thomas and I questioned the true identity of hurricanes. I thought it could be people’s broken dreams, broken hearts, hard fears to tame, demons that each of us carries within. I always go further when I read a poem. Robb says that making it his own that hurricane that sweeps everything away, but that can make you feel good if treated with care, can be the music and its role in his life.
Tonight the wardrobe opened for me, the demons I had trapped in it years ago came to me. We had a long chat, they wanted to sneak under the covers with me and then put on my own clothes and finally, get under my skin and never leave me again. But I set it on fire. Yeah, I set it on fire. I set them on fire because I realized that it is not enough to trap them in the most remote places of our consciousness, they are quick, they are smart, they re-emerge at any moment. They take possession of you and laugh, laugh out loud, as they watch you fail. They feed on your tears, the desperate ones, the ones you dry in a hurry with the palm of your hand, hoping that no one will notice them. They feed on your uncertainties, your fears. You should stop starving them. One with the blood, they run through your veins. They lurk in the bones, to the point of consuming them. You should stop. Yeah, you should stop. You should stop allowing the demons of your past to manipulate your present.

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