ERUHIN

How does the inner journey begin, the most important and long one?

It starts when you wake up in the middle of the night with tachycardia, when you look around and feel completely lost, when the world seems all sick and rotten but the reality is that you have just lost touch with yourself, or worse still not there. 'have you ever had.

Apathy becomes your answer to life, together with cynicism and pessimism, all seasoned with a generous sprinkling of victimhood.

In front of you there are 2 roads:

-continue to cry, feel inside the heart that bursts with unhappiness and accelerated pulsations, it is the body that is calling you, that warns you, is suggesting perhaps that you must stop,

-or to look deeply and stop with this routine stressful superficiality of a perfect Western.

You can look at what is happening to you and decide that it must be observed, faced, and that something must change, even everything, because in the end the only one purpose, what is it?

You look inside yourself even if it hurts very badly, even if you have to open closed boxes for decades, even if you have even more gastritis than before, and then you choose to give yourself another chance, you choose to choose yourself, to be different and not to feel less than others, because you are choosing your values ​​and it is only your well-being and self-love that you have to listen to.

You do not stop for just a few moments, but you reflect, you do not judge yourself and you take the time of your choices.
They will seem idiotic choices to most people, especially to those who never make choices and live life without Responsibility, (towards themselves first of all) but they will make you the protagonist of your life and you will feel heroic and alive.

Emotions are part of life, joy, vitality, enthusiasm and it is not normal and wise to cancel them to be who they told you to be, or for who you think you should be, it is not normal to feel only anger, frustration and resentment .

Don't tell it to yourself, don't lie to yourself, there are those who are happy and satisfied every day and in any case experience the full range of emotions, they are not polarized only on negative feelings because they just can't do otherwise.

Clear with a decisive blow all the negativity from your life, the anger, the complaints, the heated and excessive aggression in everything you do, give space to the new.
Read stories of courage and true life lived with joy, and contentment, read success stories.

Stop that inner litany that tells you that you will not make it, that you are mediocre, that you are unlucky.

Get inspired.

Breathe and let go of the old yourself.

It is necessary to get rid of everything that you have been. Your previous life is dead and now you resurrect when you thought you were completely dead.

Follow your dreams, even if at present they seem unattainable.

Don't waste your time, worry about your time, how to invest it and how to make it unforgettable.

Choose to live each day in an intense, different and uplifting way for yourself, only yourself, without pleasing anyone.

The one, the only person you have to account for is only you.

If you never stop to step back and try to figure out what you really want out of life, you will forever chase things you don't even really want. Or you will forever feel dissatisfied and unhappy, even if you manage to get them. You will feel like you are making progress, but in reality you are moving away from where you want to be.

There is no point in running faster if you are going in the wrong direction.
Many, too many unknowns to consider when making a choice of this type where revolutions not only in the way of facing life but also in living it. It certainly takes a certain amount of courage that not everyone has.

I DON’T UNDERSTAND THIS LIFE

It’s true, I don’t understand this life anymore. When my grandmother held my hand along the tree-lined streets of the neighborhood, the whole world was an infinite amazement, a wonderful and endless game, every moment. Then, when my heart exploded in my chest, losing me in the bottomless black eyes of my first love, nothing else existed but her, and the world was just a multicolored stage along which to run holding hands to discover the first words in two. Still later, imperatives and commandments. Work, affirmation, money, family, duty. As if a huge, immense wall were to be built, on which to climb in order to continue again and again to climb, climb up, with time at your heels and with a blinded conscience. Without memories, without experience, without emotion. Now, now that my gaze knows how to embrace and no longer challenge, I no longer understand life. I know it is like a flowing river, and that I cannot stem it as long as I am in this form. I know that I still want to hold a love by the hand, or fly over the musical corpuscles of a melody, or be moved by the colors of a flower. But I also know that I cannot erase a pain, that I cannot save those who tremble, that I cannot change what is or what is not. And I no longer know if my doing is really a doing or I don’t know what to do. I do not know. So I sit down, I try to feel with my eyes where the light is and to turn my heart to it, because there is nothing else Then … when they close to me … who knows … in which direction I will orient myself. After all, understanding is not really necessary …

SITTING IN THE RIVER

Sometimes you try to do a thousand things, you lose useful energy for many difficult goals and in the end you lose the true direction. The ancient sages sat on the bank of the river and meditated while all the others busied themselves with the meaning of life or followed their wishes. Sitting on the bank of the river is not lazing around but entering within oneself and acting on the things that are closest to us, that is, ourselves. Sit down and observe. Where does the river go? Where are we going? Each day the river changes in response to the different factors it is subjected to. An intense rain, a flood, the wind, the drought condition the shape of the river at least as much as the materials it erodes as it crosses, finding greater or lesser resistance to the continuous excavation work, thus remaining forced to adapt to these unexpected events and to reformulate its path continuously. Despite this, the river does not change its name and is always recognized as such. The fact that he changes route and shape every day makes him seem almost alive. Are we alive? You sit in I have often walked along the banks of a river near here. Get inside your waters. Hear the turmoil of the heart. Listen to what the water says. I have often walked along the banks of a nearby river. I had the desire to enter that stream and get to the sea and get lost returning to the origin of everything. Then I saw the ducks and my thoughts were dissolved by lotus. So small and defenseless. So beautiful and innocent. The water was cold but they were fine, I wasn’t.

THE GOOD WAY

In psychology, resilience indicates the ability to deal positively with traumatic events. The ability to positively reorganize one’s life. Rebuilding yourself while remaining sensitive. Resilient people are those who, despite being immersed in adverse circumstances, manage, against all odds, to face obstacles. Once my sister told me: “You know when the sand is hot, but you don’t care because she knows so much that you are running towards the sea? Here, we should live like this. ” He was right, he’s right. Of course, sometimes it is hard. Sometimes you feel suffocated by everything … Sometimes it seems to you that you cannot be saved by anyone, not even by yourself. Sometimes the word “hope” seems useless to you. There are days when people judge you without knowing you. Days when the mirror screams that you suck and you are not enough. Days when you find yourself face to face with pains you don’t know how to deal with. Pain you think will destroy your life. But don’t cry, not today. Tomorrow will be better. Hold back the tears. Nobody deserves your tears. Nobody. Neither the mirror nor whoever abandons you nor life. You will learn to care. To breathe without fear. To be happy without trembling. Without the fear that everything could end at any moment. Find the courage to smile. Even when you think you can’t. Smile because you can do it so much. Smile because if you do, no one will notice your demons. And they will lose importance. They will make you less and less afraid. Smile: maybe no one will think you are happy, but everyone will know that you are strong. You know how to resist. Smile and let your smile change your mood, not your mood changing your smile. Don’t waste time suffering, feeling sorry for yourself. A smile can save your life. And it could be the reason for someone else’s smile. Trust your abilities. Take care of your courage. After all, this is life: sinking for hours and re-emerging in a minute. Fall down nine times and get up again ten. Suffering a lot and smiling twice as much. Tell yourself, every day. God bless those who never lose the courage to smile at life. God bless those people who when you meet their eyes by mistake smile.
“If you did not know good, you would not be saved from evil, and if you did not know evil, you could not do good. Man is always free to choose, even unconsciously. "
"How can there be unconscious choices? Not convince me."
"I repeat, man can always choose, and not choosing is also an unconscious choice."
"Explain better ..."
"When you do not take sides, when you do not respond to an injustice done to another with your word in his defense, when you disinterest by turning your back on man, you do not do good. Your justifications, your cowardice, your indifference, your not entering into conflict with others beyond your grim personal needs, are not good, child. Nature has its own precise balance, even when it seems cruel to you, and man is not allowed to upset it. His arrogance sometimes makes him believe it, but it would be like pretending to regulate the flow of time, therefore impossible. "
And you took my pain out of my hands.

It's getting cold in my bed.

You understand my pain and fear what it can do with it.

You shout the words as if you can forget them.

And I, I, I abandon myself to what I am.

my sentence.

No it won't be your voice to make me forget that

I am the phenomenon, the slightly splashed one

Grown on everyone's eyes or ignored

I've never really been in your body

Break my bones until I freeze or run

And I run when I feel that everything is too slow

Muscles burn my heart begs me

A dignified suicide if running away from my world

I can sow the hatred from which I surround myself

I run away from my father, from my mother, from the house where I grew up revealing a landslide

I run away from the school where I can't stay

Without having to isolate myself so as not to hurt me anymore

I run away from your eyes that look at me in passing

That makes me understand that nothing is finished and you are

infinity

You have such written lips that you are good at convincing me

That there is still light in my world of underworld

That maybe you care about me and you would be there at the funeral

But that you prefer my voice when it can sing

But I shouldn't believe you are just an illusion

A cry in the head, which dulls the disappointment

I will always be in your chest destroying your pain

You will be able to forgive me as I have forgiven you

I forgive all those who have abandoned me

You were always the blinking light in the basement
You have to remember the difference between before and after. You have to remember the good so that all these tears have at least sense, to always have in mind that you were happy, to keep in mind how it was, not to settle - in the future - for something less.
You have to remember the good, but above all the bad.
Not to go looking for him once again.
To stop waiting for it.
Not to go back.
Never again.
Obviously, evil is not what the church says sin is. I believe that the set of "sins" that the Church and its messengers pass on to us as sins are just a few behaviors very intrinsic to human nature - some, of course, "objectively" negative. And the Church qualifies them as negative to exercise its perverse control over humans, according to the scheme: "you sin, then you come to me, you pay in various forms, and I absolve you, and I send you around to sin again and repeat period… and I know you will, because those behaviors (like freely enjoying sex) are too attractive ”.
Further damage that the Catholic Church (and the Muslim, Jewish, Mormon, etc ...) do is to take to itself the pleasure of discovering the deepest and most divine self, and to de-empower and weaken us.
Be ambitious. Fight.
Don't forget to be happy.

They seem like clichés, read and reread a million times.
When you manage to uncover them and make them yours, they will hurt more than a blow to the face and you will hate them.

It would be better not to have dreams, aspirations, desires; it would be better to live with disinterest. Be satisfied.
Don't be intimidated by fear, sooner or later it will knock on your door.
Don't choose to live in mediocrity, it will devour you before you know it.

Write your dreams, tell them every fucking day; do not be afraid to do some madness, regrets will hurt more.

Close the books, the ones who will talk to you with wisdom even if they don't know anything about you and who will think they are teaching you about life from page 40 to page 73.
Life is out there and sometimes it's not even that sweet.
Reopen the book when you feel you have touched the sky or are burning inside, but at that point you will no longer want to read it and you will want to write. Surround yourself with people of worth, not some fool who seeks flattery to remedy their inner despondency.
Follow those who inspire you and who have a good word for you.
You will understand that if someone has always gone well, many others have had to make up for the gratitude of life by dint of slamming doors in their faces, yet they have made it and have not yet given up.
You will understand that your story is not even that special.

Know that for every choice you make there is a way to go and no one can tell you if it is the right one.
Whatever your choice, every path you take is better than inertia.

Some will discourage you but no one knows your dreams better than yourself. Do not be afraid to trust others, but have more and more confidence in yourself, because when there is a need to start over, the only head that must not fall will be yours.

Do not be afraid to close the door on someone or something, do not be afraid to give up on saturated relationships, where only habit wins while you lose pieces little by little.
The world emanates a mysterious energy, take it.
You fail. Set yourself to fail. Give it a go.
Many will make you feel like the biggest piece of shit on earth when you fail, just wait, but you will see that those rumors will come from people who matter nothing and who have never done anything good in life.
Failure allows you to learn. Do you want to miss this opportunity? Smile, be happy.
There is nothing that angers your detractors more.
Many will hate you for your ambition, and you will make many enemies among the mediocre and the dissatisfied, but others will follow you.

Don't stop fighting when you find disloyalty, arrogance, or indifference. Go ahead, work harder and better.
Don't ask yourself too much why things, many things happen for no reason. Master the consequences.

Travel. Don't put it off.
With a couple of beers less at the bar with your friends, you will have paid for a flight; you won't have a resort waiting for you but you will have life.
Cultivate new perspectives. Talk to people. Listen to it.
You are not a star nor an outcast repressed, learn to be with everyone and in the same way.

Maybe there is always a second chance but don't take the risk.
Do what you feel. Immediately.
There is that woman you like, go. There is a job opportunity, take it.

Don't put off your life.

Don't be afraid to share your happiness with a woman.
Don't be afraid to tell yourself that you need her now.
Love her but with love, not to fill your gaps. Feel her perfume, her voice, caress her hair, shake her hands, mix with her, look at the sky together.
Go with her to Rome, Venice, Paris, but also take her where no one would take her. Don't wait.

Be yourself, be interesting. Innovate.
Don't be afraid of changes, if your life sucks it's because you don't do anything to change it except always the same things.
Listen to yourself, close your eyes, accept when it's time for a change of scenery.

Look for people like you, with your same goals, your hunger, your interests.
Don't be afraid of social relationships, don't listen to those who say that being alone is better; be sociable with everyone, but preserve your individuality, what makes you unique, who you are.
Listen to a lot of music but if you feel like it don't be afraid to buy a concert ticket and sing, watch movies, read, study, play sports and rest well.
Never define yourself in any of these things, do everything your self, but love something in particular.

Be smart, evaluate, act on impulse, take a breath and do not act on impulse anymore, when you are nervous, take long walks or run, and if something devastates you inside, don't be afraid to show yourself to your suffering.

You are living.

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