MUD COMES ALIVE

Tonight while grounding I felt the chthonic and dark side of the earth again. During the meditation, deepening its meaning, contemplating it, this once again proposed / answered me with chthonic images. This time I tried not to shy away from them. Suddenly I find myself in a swampy, muddy clearing at night. I have my arms outstretched to show my palms to that dark ground, almost to touch it, kneeling. When that mud comes alive, it takes the form of many hands that cling to me: I was dragged down. I tried to free myself, with the light, from that darkness, pushing from the arms and with the mouth (not making sounds). The threat appears to have vanished. I find myself, however, as “partially rooted to the ground! As in part sunk, as if buried (this sensation was however perceived as stronger on the back. Meanwhile there is nothing around me, I am thoughtless: finding a very brief moment of stillness, I am able to let go of fear. I let myself go, almost amused by the thought of finding myself so planted, similar to what would happen to a carrot. I let myself go to that sensation, I let the whole earth swallow me up and perhaps invoking sacred geometries I become from a “carrot” to a wedge, which as big as the mantle hits the core of the planet, as the firing pin does with the bullet. What follows is … Peace of being bathed in light and beams of dense plasma, like being in the center of a SUPERnova.

THE DESERT MEDITATION

THINKING OR MAKING?

I met the Dalai Lama personally, in my not recent past. I was inside a church of I don't know what religion and the Dalai Lama himself started a very energizing meditation with his Ohm, then repeated by everyone present, and imagine so many ohms in a huge church, it was a wave of pure energy. Well, all of this hasn't changed my life. Then I learned that China had attacked Tibet and the monks had been defeated. The monks meditate every day, what did they do wrong since their meditation caused nothing but pain and their corner of peace was destroyed? Wasn't the inner scent strong enough? What went wrong? Did Christ and his disciples also meditate through prayers and parables and what was the result? Crucified Christ and persecuted disciples. The way of spiritual love is full of slain martyrs. Would it have been different if they had rebelled? My Tai Chi master once explained to me that martial aces are not used to do violence to others but if someone attacks you you have every right to defend yourself. Defense with the hands, with the stick, with the sword ... A weapon. Preserving life is a legitimate direction of our nature. Keep it at any cost. So if someone tells me that all the evil that is happening can be overcome with the thought I am sorry but I cannot share because I have touched the energy of thought with my hand and I am sorry to say it but it does not move the mountains. Instead the actions yes. In fact, for example in Christianity we say ok to prayers but these must be followed by actions. I personally have been among the "Food for Life" volunteers who bring food to the homeless. Why don't you eat with thought, unfortunately, and wars cannot be won with thought, unfortunately. We need to meditate but also to act. Act to make good win. Take action to stop this destruction. Meditating and saying mantra is fine but afterwards you must also act because actions change a situation. We are many to write, create, dance and spread light but we must also take action in Defense otherwise nothing will remain of this Light. 

THE CRYSTAL SHIP

 

The heart is nothing more than a row of rooms, smaller and smaller, one leads into another through a closed door and stairs that descend. There are seven rooms in all. The heart of the heart is the seventh, the most difficult to reach, but the brightest because the walls are made of crystal. Every system evolves towards disorder. Everything is provisional, order cannot be sought where it cannot be found, the birth of a life is an ordered system, just as the birth of a project, the creation of something is a defeat for the universe and for entropy, because it represents what puts order in a disorderly context, the universe is always expanding towards disorder and will do everything to create more and more. Entropy always wins, each of us is destined to die, every material good to break and every emotional bond is destined to dissolve. The concept to quickly understand what this fascinating word means is this: Everything flows into disorder, every living being dies, every object breaks, is forgotten .. And we can’t do anything about it, life is disorder and despite the fact that we always try to put some order in our thoughts, in the our home, among our objects, it is not possible to avoid creating more disorder. But we will start over and continue to try to get out of the chaos.

The universe is part of this one cry in this mysterious land, where everyone is born to die. Every tree and leaf, every star shows that the universe is part of this one cry that all life is known and welcomed and all that is loved will not be lost. Let it be. Let it be. Let things happen. Do not fill yourself with paranoid problems. Or worse still of fears. Sing. Dance. Dedicate songs. Dream. Dream a lot. And go out of your way to accomplish your goal. Rebel. Don’t get submissive. Don’t worry about the future. Don’t be afraid to get involved, to dare, prove yourself for who you are. Let yourself go, let yourself be carried away by life and emotions. There will be no second chance to relive certain moments. Go out. Go dance and come home at six in the morning. Or don’t go back at all. But don’t stay indoors. Don’t be proud. It is useless. Or rather, it only serves to keep people away. Everyone has had bad experiences. Everyone has had their disappointments. Don’t think you are the only one. But you don’t have to close in on yourself for this. Write those messages you don’t have the courage to send. Don’t be left with the doubt of how it could have gone. Don’t regret it. And don’t judge yourself. You are who you are. Don’t waste time with envy. There is no reason to have a plan B, because it distracts from plan A. Relax. Lie on the lawn and look at the sky. Go to the beach. Listen to the sound of the waves. Don’t pay attention to what people say. Yes solar, even pissed off. Don’t be afraid to laugh out loud. Read the instructions, even if you do your own thing. It is never too late to change. Or not to change to fact. Look at things from different points of view. Don’t be stubborn. Yes curious. Travel. Don’t take yourself too seriously. Not too lightly. People come and go. Like the seasons. Only promise if you are sure you will keep. Surprise yourself with the little things. Amaze with small gestures. Watch a lot of movies. Believe in many things. Especially in yourself. Laugh. Yes happy. I am wasting happiness. Because smile brings smile. Yes humble. Love so much, love everything, always love. Let things happen. Let it be as it should be. Let it be.

WHAT YOU DO RETURNS TO YOU

There are people who hurt and do not realize they are hurting. People who do not have the perception of the emotional state of the other. These people have a very developed ego and do not know how to redefine it by reducing their destructive selfishness towards themselves and towards others. The first way to understand that you are dealing with an immense ego is to ask yourself: “How many things do I know about the other? Do I really know him? Do I always listen to it or am I always focused on my thoughts and desires? We live in a world full of selfishness and this is because most people only think about their own desires. When one looks at oriental disciplines one wonders why there are so many humiliating rituals such as serving food to others, staying on the sidelines and in silence for many hours, forgetting one’s private life to focus on mantras etc … But who has experienced these disciplines know well that all this is aimed at shrinking the ego and making people take care of others. We live in a society where people go to great lengths to scam and use others. In Western culture, a way of living behind others is being consolidated that is truly unworthy of human beings who consider themselves evolved. The law of the strongest? No, the law of the most idiot. Because at this rate society is destined for total destruction and not for a positive evolution. But many people are unaware of this. Just as they are not aware of the fact that if they do something bad to others, sooner or later something bad will happen to them too. Many people believe they are untouchable, infallible and very, very intelligent. They have not dealt with the energies that follow a different law and different rules. The Orientals know this well and for this reason they try to serve others and not to do good deeds. It is not a question of karma. It is not a question of magic. It is a question of survival. Always remember that whoever you hit one day could be your only salvation. So behave fairly with everyone. Do not do it for an ethical or religious question, but for a human and cunning reason too. If you are smart you will know that one day you may be in a not-so-good position and you never know who you might be in front of. Meditate. Meditate.

Have you ever had the feeling that life has paid you back with the same coin that, one day, was in your hands? As if in the past it was you who threw it in the air, looking for the side that suited you most and fleeing, in a selfish way, from the consequences of that fate. A similar thing happens with karma: it always comes back. Sometimes it seems that only negative actions that have hurt someone come back and that, instead, when we do something good, all that comes back is emptiness. What actually happens is that negative events affect us more and that is why we remember them all our lives, whether we like it or not: whether you were the blade or whether you suffered the injury. It is precisely for this reason that, when we harm someone, we are not aware of the power of that pain until we find ourselves in the same situation as it: we think we can do and undo, but without fully understanding that the way in which we live the actions of the others varies from person to person. We often say: this is karma. He gave me back what I did and he does it with interest. It is not about “interests”, it is just that now we are aware of what we have done and we will remember the lessons learned forever.

The concept of karma helps us build our tomorrow and build within it, because, as we have already explained, todays can be part of the circumstances we face in the future. This means that, most of the time, we reap what we sow, more or less right. For this reason, we give a specific meaning to what happens to us and connect the facts with each other, because everything seems to be united by threads that manifest themselves in the form of emotions. Positive energies bring with them other good energies and vice versa: a destiny that is not always fulfilled, but which always remains there to remind us that in our emotions there are also those of the people who love us.

THE GOOD WAY

In psychology, resilience indicates the ability to deal positively with traumatic events. The ability to positively reorganize one’s life. Rebuilding yourself while remaining sensitive. Resilient people are those who, despite being immersed in adverse circumstances, manage, against all odds, to face obstacles. Once my sister told me: “You know when the sand is hot, but you don’t care because she knows so much that you are running towards the sea? Here, we should live like this. ” He was right, he’s right. Of course, sometimes it is hard. Sometimes you feel suffocated by everything … Sometimes it seems to you that you cannot be saved by anyone, not even by yourself. Sometimes the word “hope” seems useless to you. There are days when people judge you without knowing you. Days when the mirror screams that you suck and you are not enough. Days when you find yourself face to face with pains you don’t know how to deal with. Pain you think will destroy your life. But don’t cry, not today. Tomorrow will be better. Hold back the tears. Nobody deserves your tears. Nobody. Neither the mirror nor whoever abandons you nor life. You will learn to care. To breathe without fear. To be happy without trembling. Without the fear that everything could end at any moment. Find the courage to smile. Even when you think you can’t. Smile because you can do it so much. Smile because if you do, no one will notice your demons. And they will lose importance. They will make you less and less afraid. Smile: maybe no one will think you are happy, but everyone will know that you are strong. You know how to resist. Smile and let your smile change your mood, not your mood changing your smile. Don’t waste time suffering, feeling sorry for yourself. A smile can save your life. And it could be the reason for someone else’s smile. Trust your abilities. Take care of your courage. After all, this is life: sinking for hours and re-emerging in a minute. Fall down nine times and get up again ten. Suffering a lot and smiling twice as much. Tell yourself, every day. God bless those who never lose the courage to smile at life. God bless those people who when you meet their eyes by mistake smile.

“If you did not know good, you would not be saved from evil, and if you did not know evil, you could not do good. Man is always free to choose, even unconsciously. "
"How can there be unconscious choices? Not convince me."
"I repeat, man can always choose, and not choosing is also an unconscious choice."
"Explain better ..."
"When you do not take sides, when you do not respond to an injustice done to another with your word in his defense, when you disinterest by turning your back on man, you do not do good. Your justifications, your cowardice, your indifference, your not entering into conflict with others beyond your grim personal needs, are not good, child. Nature has its own precise balance, even when it seems cruel to you, and man is not allowed to upset it. His arrogance sometimes makes him believe it, but it would be like pretending to regulate the flow of time, therefore impossible. "

And you took my pain out of my hands.

It's getting cold in my bed.

You understand my pain and fear what it can do with it.

You shout the words as if you can forget them.

And I, I, I abandon myself to what I am.

my sentence.

No it won't be your voice to make me forget that

I am the phenomenon, the slightly splashed one

Grown on everyone's eyes or ignored

I've never really been in your body

Break my bones until I freeze or run

And I run when I feel that everything is too slow

Muscles burn my heart begs me

A dignified suicide if running away from my world

I can sow the hatred from which I surround myself

I run away from my father, from my mother, from the house where I grew up revealing a landslide

I run away from the school where I can't stay

Without having to isolate myself so as not to hurt me anymore

I run away from your eyes that look at me in passing

That makes me understand that nothing is finished and you are

infinity

You have such written lips that you are good at convincing me

That there is still light in my world of underworld

That maybe you care about me and you would be there at the funeral

But that you prefer my voice when it can sing

But I shouldn't believe you are just an illusion

A cry in the head, which dulls the disappointment

I will always be in your chest destroying your pain

You will be able to forgive me as I have forgiven you

I forgive all those who have abandoned me

You were always the blinking light in the basement

You have to remember the difference between before and after. You have to remember the good so that all these tears have at least sense, to always have in mind that you were happy, to keep in mind how it was, not to settle - in the future - for something less.
You have to remember the good, but above all the bad.
Not to go looking for him once again.
To stop waiting for it.
Not to go back.
Never again.

Obviously, evil is not what the church says sin is. I believe that the set of "sins" that the Church and its messengers pass on to us as sins are just a few behaviors very intrinsic to human nature - some, of course, "objectively" negative. And the Church qualifies them as negative to exercise its perverse control over humans, according to the scheme: "you sin, then you come to me, you pay in various forms, and I absolve you, and I send you around to sin again and repeat period… and I know you will, because those behaviors (like freely enjoying sex) are too attractive ”.
Further damage that the Catholic Church (and the Muslim, Jewish, Mormon, etc ...) do is to take to itself the pleasure of discovering the deepest and most divine self, and to de-empower and weaken us.

Be ambitious. Fight.
Don't forget to be happy.

They seem like clichés, read and reread a million times.
When you manage to uncover them and make them yours, they will hurt more than a blow to the face and you will hate them.

It would be better not to have dreams, aspirations, desires; it would be better to live with disinterest. Be satisfied.
Don't be intimidated by fear, sooner or later it will knock on your door.
Don't choose to live in mediocrity, it will devour you before you know it.

Write your dreams, tell them every fucking day; do not be afraid to do some madness, regrets will hurt more.

Close the books, the ones who will talk to you with wisdom even if they don't know anything about you and who will think they are teaching you about life from page 40 to page 73.
Life is out there and sometimes it's not even that sweet.
Reopen the book when you feel you have touched the sky or are burning inside, but at that point you will no longer want to read it and you will want to write. Surround yourself with people of worth, not some fool who seeks flattery to remedy their inner despondency.
Follow those who inspire you and who have a good word for you.
You will understand that if someone has always gone well, many others have had to make up for the gratitude of life by dint of slamming doors in their faces, yet they have made it and have not yet given up.
You will understand that your story is not even that special.

Know that for every choice you make there is a way to go and no one can tell you if it is the right one.
Whatever your choice, every path you take is better than inertia.

Some will discourage you but no one knows your dreams better than yourself. Do not be afraid to trust others, but have more and more confidence in yourself, because when there is a need to start over, the only head that must not fall will be yours.

Do not be afraid to close the door on someone or something, do not be afraid to give up on saturated relationships, where only habit wins while you lose pieces little by little.
The world emanates a mysterious energy, take it.

You fail. Set yourself to fail. Give it a go.
Many will make you feel like the biggest piece of shit on earth when you fail, just wait, but you will see that those rumors will come from people who matter nothing and who have never done anything good in life.
Failure allows you to learn. Do you want to miss this opportunity? Smile, be happy.
There is nothing that angers your detractors more.
Many will hate you for your ambition, and you will make many enemies among the mediocre and the dissatisfied, but others will follow you.

Don't stop fighting when you find disloyalty, arrogance, or indifference. Go ahead, work harder and better.
Don't ask yourself too much why things, many things happen for no reason. Master the consequences.

Travel. Don't put it off.
With a couple of beers less at the bar with your friends, you will have paid for a flight; you won't have a resort waiting for you but you will have life.

Cultivate new perspectives. Talk to people. Listen to it.
You are not a star nor an outcast repressed, learn to be with everyone and in the same way.

Maybe there is always a second chance but don't take the risk.
Do what you feel. Immediately.
There is that woman you like, go. There is a job opportunity, take it.

Don't put off your life.

Don't be afraid to share your happiness with a woman.
Don't be afraid to tell yourself that you need her now.
Love her but with love, not to fill your gaps. Feel her perfume, her voice, caress her hair, shake her hands, mix with her, look at the sky together.
Go with her to Rome, Venice, Paris, but also take her where no one would take her. Don't wait.

Be yourself, be interesting. Innovate.
Don't be afraid of changes, if your life sucks it's because you don't do anything to change it except always the same things.
Listen to yourself, close your eyes, accept when it's time for a change of scenery.

Look for people like you, with your same goals, your hunger, your interests.
Don't be afraid of social relationships, don't listen to those who say that being alone is better; be sociable with everyone, but preserve your individuality, what makes you unique, who you are.

Listen to a lot of music but if you feel like it don't be afraid to buy a concert ticket and sing, watch movies, read, study, play sports and rest well.
Never define yourself in any of these things, do everything your self, but love something in particular.

Be smart, evaluate, act on impulse, take a breath and do not act on impulse anymore, when you are nervous, take long walks or run, and if something devastates you inside, don't be afraid to show yourself to your suffering.

You are living.

SERENITY BREATH

It takes peaceful thoughts to clear the air, from fears, from distances, to cultivate new life.
It takes climbers of good thoughts.
Bellies full of beautiful things to feel close to us. Breath is needed.
Vigilant, with bated breath, at nightfall.
The contours slowly fade,
Swallowed by the anxious awakening of memory.
Veils of violet and blue arrive
at the appointment with my heart in my throat,
chased and canceled
from a black man who is never satiated.
Only now, with firm steps,
the king of magicians will enter the scene:
it will steal your eyes
and will repeat the trick over and over.

Everything is a color.
Each emotion is a color.
Silence is white.
In fact, white is a color I can’t stand:
it has no borders.
To spend a sleepless night, go blank,
raise the white flag,
leave the blank sheet,
have a blond hair …
In fact, white isn’t even a color.
It is nothing, like silence.
A nothing without words and without music.
In silence: in white.
Each violet like a break in the sky
a company of clouds in bloom.
They bloom at sunset inside the sea.

Do you ever give people a color?

I do and sometimes I am amazed at how some can have all the shades of that color. Thus there is a midnight blue that manages to turn into a crystalline blue of dawn. A powder pink, only apparently insignificant, but always comforting, always the same. An emerald green, an orange that can be dark, a sand color, a gray as smart and brilliant as a cat, but just as soft and to caress (even if it hides it well). Then a fuchsia, an Irish grass green, a sunny yellow that can brighten as much as it burns, an unashamed red and even an olive green. A purple ... which sometimes looks like me so much, even if we are often the exact opposites and we take each other by the hand to give each other a different tone.