ANIMAL EFFECT

After the moment of terror caused by the experience of the clarity with which I see myself, I can then ask for help, to learn to truly love myself completely, to recognize every matrix that still binds me, every wound that still resonates in me and that, even now, it causes me pain. I feel I have transformed my life, and it is, but the path of awareness, and the need for self-awareness, never ends. There are many emotions that lie in a place so far away that it is difficult to reach with the mind. The path is like a spiral, you always seem to go back to the same points, but in reality it is always at a different and higher level. Keeping in mind the change and the path made in the past is the anchor that gives us the confidence and security of being able to continue doing at least the same now and in the future. Some lessons are more challenging than others. There is a process of exponential acceleration in the work on oneself, as we proceed we become more essential, and the remaining disharmonies resonate much more intensely. This does not mean that the work done previously has not been successful, it is just that there are traces left that we can dissolve more and more definitively.

UNDERWATER WORLD

And you watch yourself walk the path of your life, that path already traced, already decided, that path that you have not plowed, that path that does not reflect you in the least, that path decided by others for you. And you watch yourself walk along it, without doing anything.Without rebels, so with his head down, accepting his path. And you stay like that, empty, walking almost by inertia in a life you don’t like, in a life that doesn’t belong to you, in a life that walks without you. And why are you there? Because you don’t want to hurt the people you love. They need you and you can’t leave. You can’t choose a different path and leave them in pain. You are always underwater. Stay among the algae. You never re-emerge. Feel the cold of your destiny. You can’t get rid of who you are. You will never be able to live your happiness without making others suffer. Therefore you are imprisoned in the waters of destiny.